Last night I learned how shock can move you to feel in a specific location of your body. Seeing Ben get hurt, and uselessly imagining how much worse it could have been... rage, love and despair rushed together into a dark rectangular shape that pressed down behind my rib cage. It's heavy like slate but glides and hovers like smoke or mercury.
But to experience this also revealed a co-existing deep love and empathy, plus an opportunity to witness more examples of forgiveness and grace from the bravest man I know.
posted by Lara M at 12:42 PM
11 Comments:
Im glad he's okay now! Having a bottle thrown at you is not the greatest thing no. In America in westerns movies I saw those cages kind of in which artists play.. against flying beerbottles..
By the way I like your blog, has quite the humour!
Aw. :( Ms. LM.
I can't even imagine witnessing that; just *reading* about it made my heart feel like it was dropping into my stomach...which then felt like it dropped down to my feet!
That Ben, he's a trooper! I don't think most would think "The show must go on!" after something like that happened. His fortitude, tenacity, & dedication to his fans & his cause continually amaze me. It makes me want to be a better person.
I *totally* understand that wild mish-mash of feelings that welled up. And it's weird how they all kind of contridict each other, too, you know?
Take care of yourself; you must still be in a lot of shock - understandably!
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Beautifully written El May!!
wow, what a day. beautifully written and expressed.
That was terrible what happened. Some people are just...words can't describe.
Been lurking about for a while...I love random photos.
I can just imagine seeing that, just reading about it I was so shocked, and even worse is for people to think its FUNNY! That gets me really annoyed, but Bens such a forgiving guy. If only there were more people like him, only I like that hes so special :)
Hey Lara, Love your blog. That must've been a terrible thing to witness. I couldn't imagine it. I hope all is well, and Ben certainly is brave. I hate to think this but I don't think I would've had the patience or the courage to walk away, so good for him! He's an inspiration in every sense of the word! Anyway, hope you're having fun in South Africa! Please come back to Canada soon! (I work in a chocolate store, so I will totally bribe you into coming back quickly and bring you and the boys some delicious treats! Dark chocolate, right?) Much love,
Ashley D
Lara> you are a true angel and Benny's blessed to have you by his side... You were so calm at the time and so generously reassured one quite upset 'soldier' (ie me!)afterwards when you obviously had more pressing things on your mind.
Thank you for that and I hope you realise just how amazing and strong you are -no matter what life brings. It's these kind of things that allow us to be powerfully transformed for the better.
Take care and keep on shining...
Love Zoe
Wow... how did you react when that happened? Were you guys mid-song or what? It must be scary to see a friend being hurt like that. At least you guys are dealing with it well. Please give Ben some kisses on the head.
such an incredibly visceral explosion, I can't imagine... and quite a bitingly beautiful description
take care and be well
we heart you
*xo* brieness
Lovely blog Lara...despite the incident the love that has been flowing in like a fire hose has been sincere..to you and ben. take care of eachother....love jasmine
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